Siblings, Part Three.

Unless directly tampered with, Cylons did not lose memories. They were, however, capable of the same psychological tricks that humans used to keep those memories out of their consciousness. Caspar was particularly fond of repression. It’s why he spoke so little of his time post-resurrection. If he didn’t talk about it, he didn’t have to think about it. He could keep all those dark times locked up inside of him where they belonged.

He’d already had plenty of practice.
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Siblings, Part Four

Dreams have their own dominion over memories.

It’s why so many Cylons hated to dream. It left them feeling helpless, doomed to experience thoughts and feelings that they had worked so hard to ignore. It’s why the Ones almost never slept, and why the other models had their own avenues of escape.

Caspar’s dreams were never symbolic. Maybe his model was too literal, or maybe he had repressed his past so hard that his unconscious presented it to him, whole-cloth, every aspect of the memory as vivid as if he were reliving it.

His dreams almost always revolved around his time on New Caprica or later. But as the first month of the new year drew to a close, those dreams touched on memories of a past before that, closer and closer to a point in time that he had repressed so hard that he could no longer remember it.
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